I am a victim of Familial human/sex trafficking lasting from birth, to 18 years and 3 days to be exact. I’m the 6th of 8 living children. My mom and dad had kids, knowing they were unstable and homeless. My mom even knew my dad was a pedophile when she met him. I was born at 26 weeks, and left the nicu after 8 months. I was in foster care within a year after that. Someone who worked for Family Services, told my parents to make a run for it, so they took us and left. We moved around the United States, hopping houses, living in a car and finding random shelters and motels. We moved into a house that was supposed to be condemned, and was infested with roaches and other bugs. It had toxic black mold, and my parents ripped out all the walls and replaced them with curtains. We had no doors, and only 2 rooms for the children. Most of us didn’t have beds. My parents were abusing my older siblings. Beating, manipulating, emotionally abusing, and sexually exploiting through behaviors and coercion. My oldest brother started molesting all of us siblings, and eventually my other older brother did too. I was 2, when my mother allowed me to be cared for by her brother/my uncle, who assaulted her as a child. I came back to her care with obvious signs of abuse down in my private area, and she didn’t report it. When she found out about my brothers abusing us, she condoned it by saying us daughters were promiscuous and being sexual. She told me to stop making my brothers touch me. I was 6.

When I was 10, my mother showed me an explicit video of a little girl being abused, and she sexually assaulted me that night. She watched me dress and undress, violating my privacy by opening the shower curtains, and told me she was allowed to see me because she made me. My parents are religious, and the church knew partially what was going on and told us not to go to the police or therapy, to handle it with god. I found out my dad molested his first born daughter for years. My oldest brother forced me to engage in acts with our family dog, and made me watch things on the dark web. I had a sister close to my age who had quadriplegic cerebral palsy, she couldn’t walk or talk. She was neglected and starved, until she died at the age of 14.
My parents were not found guilty for her death. CPS was involved a lot in my life, but never did anything to help us children. At age 13, my oldest brother impregnated me but I miscarried. I escaped when someone bought me a plane ticket secretly and I fled to another state, 3 days after my 18th birthday. Because of the abuse, I now have physical and mental disabilities, and can hardly leave my house. I’m terrified of everything, and have a phobia of men. I have low functioning Autism, ADHD, C-PTSD, bipolar 1, BPD, psychosis, major depressive, generalized anxiety, extreme phobias, severe OCD, and a drug addiction. I’m 100 days sober today. I feel so alone and tired. I’m seeking support in this Tell Somebody group, because I have nowhere to go. I don’t even know where to start